New guy, Call me Rik

Hello everyone. I have been lurking around the forums here for a while. I have been lurking around a lot of weightlifting forums for a while now. I have always worked out off and on my whole life. Nothing too sierous though. A few years ago I was diagnosed with hodgkin's lymphoma cancer. After a rough year of cemothearapy and radiation thearapy I am proud to say I am no in remission. Ever since I have had a lot of depressive symptoms. Constant brain fog, Always Tired. Very hard to gain muscle and even harder to keep it. My anxiety is through the roof, I get angry and snappy with my loved ones. Overall I have been acting like a bitch and I hate it. The last year I have been doing everything I can to better my mental health. I have been in therapy, on and off medacine and strictly dieting and weightlifting. I still have all of my life destroying after cancer symptons. I finally realize that I may have a hormone imbalance. I get my blood done and am absolutely floored to find out my overall test legal is at 291 nd/dl. It turns out that men who are cancer survivors have a much higher chance of low t. My doctor won't do anything about it. Says I need to try to raise them naturally because I'm so young. My first thought was to try a trt clinic but I quickly realized this was to expensive for me. I have been studying online websites for months now but I can't find anything worth trying to get what I need. I know this has been a rant but I just needed somewhere to vent even if no one is listening. I'm at my waits end. I will keep lifting hard at the gym 5 days a week because it's the only thing keeping me safe. I feel like lifting is the only reason I have any drive at all. I'm only 25 and I feel like I barely have any will to get out if bed. If any of you guys have had issues with low t done be afraid to speak up. Hope things are going well for all you guys. I guess I am just looking for someone who knows what U am going through, or someone to help keep me fighting and motivated.

-Rick